Wow. It has been a long while since I sat down to write a blog post. I can already tell you that I have 35 minutes left in nap time, and laundry that needs to be switched over. I think it is safe to say that this blog post will be fairly short.
When I had my daughter, who is now 9 months old, I was over the moon excited and ready to tackle motherhood. I knew it would be hard, but I reckoned I had the support of those who have gone before me, and those that I was going through motherhood with now. A.K.A other moms.
You know those formula commercials (I forget the brand that puts them on), but they talk about the "Circle of Sisterhood" that you join when you become a mom. How you have this endless support of moms across the country, world, perhaps universe...if you wanna go that far. We want the MOM group when we have kids. It is a great group to be apart of...I love the sympathetic looks I get when my daughter is crying in the store (you know you can only get those from other moms). The play dates and being able to talk mommy with someone who GETS IT. Because lets be honest...my husband doesn't always understand the baby eyed, wipe her hands, don't let her eat that, she hasn't pooped today, does she look okay?, CRAZY mom monster I have become.
It is nice to have other moms to share in this journey with.
That said, I have recently been convicted. We started a mom bible study with several moms in our church and our pastor's wife is leading the study. She picked out the book "Walking with God in the Season of Motherhood" by Melissa Kruger. I was really excited to start this book! It is hard to find time to spend in the word when there are a million things demanding your attention. We had our first meeting this morning. We were able to meet some new moms and get to know the ladies in this group. However, I didn't get to share my conviction and while it's on my mind I'm going to share with you. Right here. Typed out.
I was convicted before I even opened the book. I did not even turn the cover to open it. I simply read the title and reflected introspectively.
Walking with God in the Season of Motherhood.
Right there. WALKING WITH GOD!
You see...this Circle of Motherhood that I so craved. This bond with other moms. Wanting, and at times forcing, mom friendships to have the acceptable status quo of mommy friends. I wanted other moms to walk through this journey of motherhood with. So much so, that I put aside the fact that I should desire walking with God through motherhood FIRST.
There is nothing wrong with mommy friends, obviously. So don't take this the wrong way. I don't know what I would do without my mom friends. Especially, my loving, supportive sisters in the Lord. But it is with God whom I should continually strive to walk through motherhood with. He is my biggest supporter and has nothing but my best interest at heart. He knows my heart and my everyday motherhood struggles (which to some may seem insignificant). He so carefully designed the relationship between a mother and her child. Who else would you go to but the designer Himself?
Anyway...naptime is ending, therefore so is this post. I hope other moms can share in my conviction; and remember that while it's great to be part of the circle of motherhood, nothing is greater than being in the circle of God's chosen for His kingdom.